sad life story of Ivan Chong

phnom penh,nak ekot :(

the time da nk smpai da..

haiyoo..takut muet la..

x cnfident pn bley dpt higher band..

haizz..

truk kan??

all notes yg blaja from mr.affendi sume left inside store ktf..

sgt trlpe nk asing kn with notes yg laen..

skunk ni tnga buntu meh..

tataw nk stdy cne..

usha2 je ape yg patut diusha..

haha..

mak dtg uma adik ptg td..

with mknan yg over byk..

mknan yg beli smlm pn x smpat nk mkn..

can bt stok 4 two days kot ni..

haiyoo..mak leaving again..

agaga..

mak ngn papa nk celebrate anniversery dorg..

kt phnom penh

haiyoo..

slalu kne tinggal ngn mak..

benci papa..

ske curi mak fyfa meh..

tp at the same time lega sgt sb nti muet

bley peg sniri..

jom berscoot..

huhu..

belaja berdikari..

agaga,berdikari habiss..

signing out :)

ni uma sy..sy nak dye :) hehe..

the plan :)

fyfa ternampak pixie ni..

n it looks very interesting

daaannn..

sgt comey a.k.a sweett :)

btw, fyfa craving nk mango ice blended..

kakak,adik..

bile kite bley peg noodle station??

signing out :)

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Ku tutup mataku
Dari semua pandanganku
Bila melihat matamu
Ku yakin ada cinta ketulusan hati
Yang mengalir lembut

Penguasa alam
Tolonglah pegangi aku
Biar ku tak jatuh
Pada sumur dosa yang terkutuk
Dan menyesatkan cintaku

Andaikan ku bisa
Lebih adil pada cinta kau dan dia
Aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna
Ku tak luput dari dosa

Biarlah ku hidup seperti ini
Takdir cinta harus begini
Ada kau dan dia bukan ku yang mau
Oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku

okay mse fyfa kt bilik hari tu fyfa ngn ain,bee, ngan tirah tgk cte

bila cinta bertasbih..

cte dye sgt besh..

n abdullah @ furqan sgt patuh dgn mak dye..

bley mnangis tgk cte ni mse mak dye meninggal sb furqan x aty2 mse bwk moto..

mak furqan meninggal n furqan masuk hospital..

above: LIRIK ROSSA TAKDIR CINTA

tertarik with this 2 sentences

Aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna
Ku tak luput dari dosa

signing out :)

kucing no name:)

hari2 dye mkn

mkn dye hari2

dye mkn hari2

uhuhu..ni la kucing bru kt uma..

first2 fyfa smpai uma it's been a while disappear..

dye lari cm lintang pukang..

takut kot dgn org yg x knal..

tp skunk hari2 asyik ade je tdo dkt kaki..

hurrmm..rpe ny kucing sgt mudah utk didekati an???

haha =p

ni da kali ke3 dye mkn 4 2day..

hari2 dye mkn byk..

winx2..

signing out :)

pengajaran

:: p/s be tough ::

fyfa,long ngn kakak went to uma acik last night..

it takes about 5 hours to sampai..

hurmm..hati fyfa dlm kete da sgt berombak..

sgt takut if anything happen b4 adik beradik dpt jmpe acik..

sb mak ckp acik sakit truk sgt..

with pak long's guide smpai gk kt uma acik..

this is my 2nd time smpai kt pekan..

first smpai mse kawen k.long yana ank pak long klau x clap..

itu da bout 6 years ago..

hurrrmm..sgt lme kan???

couz yg plg fyfa igt cume k.ami dgn abg yo..

k.ami sgt close ngn fyfa mse wed long..

n abg yo fyfa igt sb abg yo sgt tinggi..

lpas tu fyfa cme igt ank ecu 2 org..

yg laen if jmpe kt mne2 pn mesti cm x knal..

neva meet them yg btl2..

i'd been thinking too much on wanna celebrate eid with family in pekan..

hey..dorg sgt la baek..

though we cme duduk situ dlm about 2 hours cm tu..

tp mak long masak mcm2..

mcm nk mkn utk 2 hari..huhu..

i luv mak long's cook..

wonder???ble fyfa nk blaja masak???

kt uma adik xde stove..haizz..

msak megi bley la gne heater kt uma..

errpppp..urmmm??

ok..back to the real topic..

fyfa nk cte pasal acik fyfa..

urmm..

acik fyfa da suffering cancer since 2003..

a year afta acik dtg wedding long...

acik dpt taw acik kne breast cancer..

cancer memg prkara yg plg sakit kan??

tp ape yg fyfa nmpak setbe je fyfa smpai..

acik senyum dgn sgt gembira kt fyfa..

she still can smiling though it's the most critical time for her and us too..

hurmm..

actually fyfa da x igt mke acik..

n smpai2 je fyfa da tgk acik terbaring da..

fyfa worried..

tp ble da lme ckp2..

bru rse cm a bit ok..

acik sgt byk ckp..

n fyfa nmpak acik sgt tabah utk survive..

acik become better skit afta penduduk tman nearby

dtg bce Yassin ramai2..

besh kan klau dpt jiran2 cm tu??

they keep on giving smangat kt acik..

pakcik ckp org dtg x putus2 since dpt taw

acik kne breast cancer n bcome more critical..

acik kne serang breast cancer da sgt lme..

and ape yg doc ckp in year 2004

acik cme bley survive only 3 months if x buat operation..

tp itu sume kuasa Allah kan??

hidup mati xde sape yg taw..

afta da bt pmbedahan..

acik's life back to normal..

in year 2006, acik da become weaker..

n acik da x kuat sgt utk berjln jauh2..

tp pak cik still peg sne sini to find ubat2 kg..

urmm..

last feb that cancer serang anotha breast..

start from there acik ckp acik jd makin lemah..

and acik tunjuk an kt fyfa ngn kakak kt tmpat yg kne..

tp fyfa tgk skjap je sb fyfa sgt takut nk tgk..

the breast yg bru kne serang da bernanah..

hurmm..fyfa tataw how klau fyfa yg ade kt tmpat acik..

tataw la cne..mesti serba x kne..

nk baring lme2 pn tabley..

nk duduk pn sakit..

nk berjalan apatah lagi..

hurrmm..

then,another breast yg hv to buang dulu tu da jdik berlubang..

bayang an betapa takut ny fyfa nk tgk kan??

mcm mne klau kte yg de kt tmpat acik??

haizz..

fyfa cte ni cme sebagai pengajran utk kte sume..

supaya nti kite slalu berjge2..

as fyfa..

fyfa kne b more hati2 sb both kt kg belah pekan n jerantut

kne breast cancer..

acik belah pekan

n mak ngah ros belah jerantut..

fyfa might de probability to get that cancer too..

tp ape yg penting kte kne slalu berdoa supaya Allah jauhkan

kite dr segala penyakit yg berbahaya n pnyakit yg x berbahaya gak kan??

dlm kete on the way back..

long pesan..

ipah,kakak.. nti ipah ngn kakak peg la check ye..

dgn nada bimbang..

then ipah ngn kakak cme gelak je sb long

klau bt muka mara o mke bimbang

mesti akn mnjdi lawak..

tp ape yg long ckp memg btul..

jom kite sme2 check..

ok signing out :)

fyfa wanna off to bed dulu..

craving

naakkkk..nak cup cake :)

family potrait..

A little girl needs Daddy
For many, many things:
Like holding her high off the ground
Where the sunlight sings!
Like being the deep music
That tells her all is right
When she awakens frantic with
The terrors of the night.

Like being the great mountain
That rises in her heart
And shows her how she might get home
When all else falls apart.

Like giving her the love
That is her sea and air,
So diving deep or soaring high
She'll always find him there.

unluckily, sometimes,

we unable to FIND him

when he made up the decision to LEAVE AGAIN.

signing out: