forgive me

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you
I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurts so much to hurt you
Then you looked at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now
To kill those words for you
Each time I say something I regret I'd cry
I don't want to lose you
But somehow I know that you would never leave me yeah
Because you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me oh
I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive
So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside
That I'm sorry
Can you forgive me again?
You're my one true friend
And I didn't mean to hurt you

truly being alienated

what will you say if someone alienated you??

and all you have now it's just only four persons who played with you since you are very small..

then that 'someone' is no longer exist in your life

as that 'someone' suddenly go to the one that you hated most..

and that 'someone' will never turn back..

does this make you cry non-stop??

i need to talk to that 'someone' everyday!!!

because i love her with all my heart and it is endlessly

i love her more than the one that i hated most can loves her..

without that 'someone' i'll unable to walk,run and jump on this earth and

unable to see Allah's creations..

what should i do??

currently my everyday turns darker and seems double,triple and fourple gloomy already..

and it's impossible for me to hear that 'someone's voice everyday..

i'm sick!!!i'm tired!!

i think it's enough to feel the worst memories for ten years..

i need a normal life..

Ya Allah am I too stubborn??

and that's why i deserve to continue my worst memories

throughout my life Ya Allah..

please Ya Allah..

please give me one way out from all of these Ya Allah..

i miss my old 'someone'..

i think my someone will be

much better without the present of the one that i hated most!!!

and i can have a chance to say i love her everyday

via voice call..

signing out:

where should I??

MY SADDEST MOMENT

where should i stay when arrived my hometown??

this week is sucks!!

(i'd skipped English, Ethnic and Lab Management classes)

*urm..the tense environment had affected me much*

"i had always slept early though i know

i didn't finish my study on that night yet with

the thought i will forget everything tomorrow"

i'd always been thinking about where n what should I do when arrived my hometown??

can i quietly sit in the bus even though i'm already in KUALA TERENGGANU

because i do not know where should I stay??

am I homeless??

GOD..

i'm not as tough as before..

i'm not a ribena kid as before..

i'm not look like before..

this is not me..

i'm annoying..

GOD..

i'm sorry because i always unhappy and upset with myself..

i'm sorry because i have such a low self-esteem now..

i'm the worst to be..

GOD..

i just hold this conversation

fadhil: fifah,di sebalik kepayahan di situ ada kekuatan..

mirul: be tough buddy!! i had through all this before and i know how you feel..

but yours is worst than me..

fara : do what you think best for your family

pk diri awk, ur mum n ur siblings first..

follow ur heart..

GOD..

please help me to become a strong girl like before..

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

(currently i switch off my phone)

because the last person that i called many time last night didn't response me

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

this song reminds me of mak..

i wish she could see this video clip..

(video clip's below makes me cry like insane girl) :(

signing out:

when someone tell you??

when someone tell you that you can't do something..

don't doubt yourself

instead, stretch yourself

you've gotta stick your neck out, do your best :)

use all your power and your positive attitude

never,never give up

in the end, you will be succeed and prove them

they are wrong!!

it's just nothing is impossible if you use

your positive attitude..

signing out:

why??

why~~do you always do this to me??

why~~couldn't you just see through me??

how come..

you act like this..

like you just don't care at all..

do you expect me to believe..

i was the only want to fall..

i can feel, i can feel..

you near me..

even though you're far away..

i can feel, i can feel..

you~~why~~

it's not supposed to feel this way..

i need you, i need you..

more and more each day..

it's not supposed to hurt this way..

i need you, i need you, i need you..

tell me..

are you and me still together??

tell me..

do you think that we could last forever??

tell me..

why..

hey..

listen to what we're not saying..

let's play..

a different game that we're playing..

try..

to look at me and really see my heart..

do you expect me to believe..

i'm gonna let us fall apart??

signing out:

the story once told to you

Once upon a time,
there was a..
a...

She was a..
a...

He was a...
a...

But, one day,
they...

So....

Still, they...
He....
She....

The end.

........................................

her photos..

signing out:

ber ym..

fyfa berym..made fyfa a bit relieve..

mirul pndai amek ati fyfa..
he's showing his future gf..
bt fyfa rse epy sb..
he's alone..
n nk bg dye lpe an aina jgak..
all those bad memories yg jd scar in his life..

asma n syaerah too..
lyn je sgle kegilaan..

yaa..memg fyfa rse sgt perit nk through
evrything yg suddenly happen..
fyfa tataw cne ble fyfa blik uma nti..
urmm..4 the time being..fyfa asyik pk uma je..
n kdg2 fyfa terpk nk bt sumthing yg plik2..

criusly..
n bru fyfa realised y besh fwen fyfa yg parents ny da divorce mostly prangai agk plik
hoho...dlu mse berckp2 ngn mirul fyfa ckp la yg dye ni kwn yg trplik fyfa pena knal..
n skunk pn fyfa mybe become more weird than him..

fyfa ckp..

signing out:

balik!!!

huhh..2day fyfa da jd too sad..

what do u guys feel ble sumone yg u love much n much kne pkul
with the one that he/she loves???

fyfa bru abez klas td..n sumone msg fyfa..
ckp that person kne pkul..

fyfa totally upset n sdey sgt..
coz..fyfa dr kcik with him/her..

no wonder la td tgh ari he/she call fyfa..
ckp he/she miss me a lot..
n then cre he/she ckp mcm ask fyfa blik hometown cpt2..
huh..fyfa nk blik!!!
nk blik!!
nk blik!!

fyfa tkt fyfa will losing him/her because of
that person yg cm pe tu..

cuti mid sem lmbt ag..
sdey nye..
quiz n test agk byk for this 2 weeks..
fyfa can't blik..

signing out:

untitled

it's been very long time i'm not bloggin'
kinda dun hv so enough time to coret2 at my blog ini..
urmm..i feel very epy kot 2day..
but then dunnoe y..
ok it's started from this morning..
huhu..
pg td it's a bit pack..
non-stop classes..
1st=organic biomol..
2nd= physical chemistry
3rd=lab management
fyfa has quiz about safety,risk n hazard td..
urmm..agk ok..
4th=eng
we just went to library n dga talk from mdm zurina..
ahaa..fyfa bru realise slma ni infolan2 byk gk function dye..
hoho..it's time to explore all those things=)

ptg tu..
fyfa tdo jap..
n then afta taking shower..
fyfa maen dgn LOLI..
the owner: NUR UMIRA BINTI TAIB
suda berpndah milik
from pakcik anep..

banzai2!!!
fyfa cycling peg H13..
huhu..agk pancit skit..
sb lme x naek bicycle..
huaa..hpefully nti fyfa can
get a green light to buy
new bicycle..
my own bicycle..
nk sangaaatttt...
hehe..

fyfa skip training netball..
a.k.a pengganti my koko..
sgt ujan lebat..
n kilat sna dan sni..
sgt tkt to going out..

urmm...then trus peg dinner with ain n mad..
photostat IR..
then mkn2..
fyfa with mad mam nasi grg aym..
ain mam nasi grg kg..
sedaapp!!!=)

k.sal then ordered nasi pattaya..
uhuhh..fav fyfa tu..
n bumble ordered nasi with kailan..
huhu..itu pn sedaappp!!!=)

heaven sgt..

hehe..n then bru td ciap an theory for lab report..
sort of many works ag hv to finish up..


signing out: