truly being alienated

what will you say if someone alienated you??

and all you have now it's just only four persons who played with you since you are very small..

then that 'someone' is no longer exist in your life

as that 'someone' suddenly go to the one that you hated most..

and that 'someone' will never turn back..

does this make you cry non-stop??

i need to talk to that 'someone' everyday!!!

because i love her with all my heart and it is endlessly

i love her more than the one that i hated most can loves her..

without that 'someone' i'll unable to walk,run and jump on this earth and

unable to see Allah's creations..

what should i do??

currently my everyday turns darker and seems double,triple and fourple gloomy already..

and it's impossible for me to hear that 'someone's voice everyday..

i'm sick!!!i'm tired!!

i think it's enough to feel the worst memories for ten years..

i need a normal life..

Ya Allah am I too stubborn??

and that's why i deserve to continue my worst memories

throughout my life Ya Allah..

please Ya Allah..

please give me one way out from all of these Ya Allah..

i miss my old 'someone'..

i think my someone will be

much better without the present of the one that i hated most!!!

and i can have a chance to say i love her everyday

via voice call..

signing out:

where should I??

MY SADDEST MOMENT

where should i stay when arrived my hometown??

this week is sucks!!

(i'd skipped English, Ethnic and Lab Management classes)

*urm..the tense environment had affected me much*

"i had always slept early though i know

i didn't finish my study on that night yet with

the thought i will forget everything tomorrow"

i'd always been thinking about where n what should I do when arrived my hometown??

can i quietly sit in the bus even though i'm already in KUALA TERENGGANU

because i do not know where should I stay??

am I homeless??

GOD..

i'm not as tough as before..

i'm not a ribena kid as before..

i'm not look like before..

this is not me..

i'm annoying..

GOD..

i'm sorry because i always unhappy and upset with myself..

i'm sorry because i have such a low self-esteem now..

i'm the worst to be..

GOD..

i just hold this conversation

fadhil: fifah,di sebalik kepayahan di situ ada kekuatan..

mirul: be tough buddy!! i had through all this before and i know how you feel..

but yours is worst than me..

fara : do what you think best for your family

pk diri awk, ur mum n ur siblings first..

follow ur heart..

GOD..

please help me to become a strong girl like before..

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

(currently i switch off my phone)

because the last person that i called many time last night didn't response me

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

this song reminds me of mak..

i wish she could see this video clip..

(video clip's below makes me cry like insane girl) :(

signing out:

when someone tell you??

when someone tell you that you can't do something..

don't doubt yourself

instead, stretch yourself

you've gotta stick your neck out, do your best :)

use all your power and your positive attitude

never,never give up

in the end, you will be succeed and prove them

they are wrong!!

it's just nothing is impossible if you use

your positive attitude..

signing out:

why??

why~~do you always do this to me??

why~~couldn't you just see through me??

how come..

you act like this..

like you just don't care at all..

do you expect me to believe..

i was the only want to fall..

i can feel, i can feel..

you near me..

even though you're far away..

i can feel, i can feel..

you~~why~~

it's not supposed to feel this way..

i need you, i need you..

more and more each day..

it's not supposed to hurt this way..

i need you, i need you, i need you..

tell me..

are you and me still together??

tell me..

do you think that we could last forever??

tell me..

why..

hey..

listen to what we're not saying..

let's play..

a different game that we're playing..

try..

to look at me and really see my heart..

do you expect me to believe..

i'm gonna let us fall apart??

signing out:

the story once told to you

Once upon a time,
there was a..
a...

She was a..
a...

He was a...
a...

But, one day,
they...

So....

Still, they...
He....
She....

The end.

........................................

her photos..

signing out: